Tuesday, May 28, 2013

5 Years

5 years ago on May 26th Brandon's twin sister was born. I don't know how 5 years have gone by since that horrible day 5 years ago. I had so much hope that even though my sac had ruptured 8 days prior I would somehow hold onto her until viability so that she would be born and live. Every day I was in the hospital on bedrest after my sac ruptured and I was still pregnant with the twins I heard her heartbeat several times a day. It sounded so strong. 5 years later I still don't think it is fair that she was taken from me so early. I know Brandon and Wesley have an angel looking down on them. She helped get Brandon through his 12 weeks in the NICU and has helped to make him the strong boy that he is today. I really believe she is looking down on him. I would have loved to see Brandon and her together. I see the bond that Brandon has with Wesley and wonder if Brandon what kind of bond Brandon would have had with her. On May 18th, the day my sac ruptured 5 years prior, I posted on facebook. I meant to write on here on May 26th and somehow that day got away from me. I felt terrible when I all of a sudden remembered tonight. Baby girl, you are not forgotten, nor will you ever be. You will always hold a special place in my heart.

1 comment:

Allie said...

I am myself a preemie, born 6 weeks early on August 7th, 1993, with a due date of September 20th. My sisters were born prematurely as well. I was the smallest out of the three of us, and I was very, very sick with beta strep and almost died. I spent 5-6 weeks in the NICU, and was transported by ambulance to another hospital for treatment. My whole family was upset and crying because no one believed I would live since I was so sick. I had IVs and other tubes in several parts of my body, and I still have permanent scars from IVs on my arm and wrist. Your daughter is in a better place now, and God is taking great care of her and she is no longer suffering. Brandon is a blessing and a miracle. Keep that in mind.